Trust...

I was talking to my uncle today. It is always a joy to have a conversation with him. If you ever want to be encouraged he's the one who will do just that! I was talking about "trust" and how we have what I call an "active" way of trusting and a "dormant" way of trusting. Here is an example of "active" trust: I went for an interview, I trusted that the Lord would open the doors He wanted to, and show favor. The result: I was hired as a sub, the principal and staff liked me, and I like the school. That was "active" because I saw an instant result. I trusted God to carry me through it and He did all the way through the interview. Here is the "dormant" trust example: I trust that the Lord will guide me through a situation I am currently facing and that He will help me understand what I do not. I am placing my full trust in Him that I alone cannot do it but He can. What I am dealing with has no reward, no result(later on down the road perhaps), no miracle to be performed. This is "dormant" because I am to simply trust without seeing, touching, tasting, hearing, or even knowing the outcome. There is no result, no expected end time, it's just to simply trust.

What the Father has pointed out to me is I need to learn to TRUST Him. With every little thing. I do but I guess there are some areas where I question Him. I know better but it's extremely hard to trust when many, many times trust has been trampled upon. This is not my crutch, it's just an opportunity for growth.

I have learned that His truth is worthy! I trust that His word will never fail me. I trust that He knows my weakness and that He is not going to give up on me. I have a ways to go but I trust that He knows my every need and my very next breath.

Be Blessed~
Amber

Ahhh Memories...

What is a memory? Is it good things you remember? Is it bad things you remember? Is it both good and bad things? Let's look up the definition: Memory-the act or fact of retaining and recalling impressions, facts, etc.; remembrance; recollection: to draw from memory. I want so badly to give every memory I have to the Lord. To answer my own question, I think memories are not necessarily bad, we choose to remember the good things, the moments that make us smile or laugh, but sometimes those memories involve a certain something or someone that while in that moment made us smile or laugh but now it or they are just a memory and the happiness is soon mowed over by the sadness and bitter end of the memory. I say all this because I am striving to move on to the next chapter in my book and I believe I am making good progress but memories are what they are.....a recollection......a remembrance....of something that was and is no more. It's hard for a human to let go, it's hard to be still and know there is no going back. I do not want to go back, I do however want God to reveal what needs to be revealed. I am just rambling now. I do not expect any of you to understand but I guess what I am trying to say is, I do not like for things to end and that is an area where God needs to deal with me in. I happened to come across some pictures of school friends and other things and the memories came flooding back. To God be the glory. He knows my struggles and believe He knows yours. You are His child and He cares for you.

Be Blessed~
Amber

A new beginning...

I am sure many people have written the same thing on their blog, "This is my first blog...." and well, this is my first blog. I never thought about making one until I deleted my facebook and myspace(I know, I know! Crazy!) I knew it was time to say goodbye to the so called "drama" of the two and embark on a calling so completely blank....or so it seems. The Lord put on my heart to delete the very things that kept me locked into heartache. I'll be real, a break-up is never pretty but the way we handle the pages of our own story is crucial to our overcoming. I get my name, "I'm but a page..." because the Lord gave me a song lyric that simply states the truths about how some of us are willing to sell the book on someone else when we haven't even tended to the pages in our own story. God is so great and has delivered me from a life I tried to hold onto and into a life where new beginnings are possible daily. I am sure my future husband will be quite pleased as well, for my heart is mine again and first and foremost it is the Lord's. I hope that this blog and future one's will send some encouragement your way. To whoever you are, "There is hope for tomorrow and life for today! So take what you are given and give it away. We can't take it with us and can't keep it to ourselves. So LOVE one another and love yourself."

Be Blessed~

Amber