Life Changing.....God can do this!

Hi Friends~

Sunday was pretty much a great day for some freedom I so badly needed and wanted. It doesn't take much for something to spark an old issue and from that moment, it starts to attack your joy. Like I have said before, I care waaaaaay to much it seems. The matter at hand is, God's got this! He does! Whatever hurts, whatever sorrows, whatever joys, and whatever thing it is that needs overcoming or heck just living through, God's got it!

It's been a little while since my heart has been solely the Lord's. My greatest joy and yet it seems that my greatest struggle has been entrusting my Father, God, with my whole heart. Not only trusting Him with it but trusting that He is who He is and that He does what He says He'll do.

I am getting back to the place where I am not looking to give my heart away to whoever will take it and love it. It's not worth the time but it is worth the wait!

I was at The Garden, a church that my best friend's mom pastors and I was picked out by the Lord once again. I had been dealing with some things in my heart and only God could have known and yet at the moment Momma H (the pastor) began to speak, I knew the word was for me. It literally pertained to everyone but it was directed at me. I love how God does that. How can a person know exactley what you are going through when they have not seen you in about a year? Only God could download such information to an individual.

The word was, there are alot of "homeless" and "hungry" here tonight. Not in the sense of phsyically homeless or without food hungry, but in a way such as this:

Homeless: searching for a place to belong, not yet found where the Lord has called your life and what He has called you to do. Searching for a place to be loved.

Hungry: you know you want more of Christ, more of what He has to offer because you recognize that what He offers is good and you don't know how to expalin what you lack and are hungry for but you know that you need more, sustainable, food....the Truth.

Simply put, I knew I was hungry and my heart felt unloved. I was hungry for more of the Lord and what He wants with my life and I felt unloved by the world's definition of not having someone(of the opposite sex) loving me.

If only I would learn to lean on the promises of God that He said He grants the desires of your heart and that He does work for the good of all who love Him. Well, I LOVE HIM! So what do I worry about? It's the constant nag that I am alone, someone didn't choose me(yet), I wasn't good enough to obviously have a lasting relationship like sooooo many others.

It's all a lie. God delivered me from the pitfall of the enemy, and although it felt and sometimes feels cruel and unloving to have something snatched away, it was for my good.

He does love me and He does know what my heart needs.

I am done looking and searching for an earthly love. I have found the greatest love of all....my savior, my lover, my king Jesus.

A song that propelled my heart to get back to my first love was by the artist, Misty Edwards. It is called Take My Heart. I encourage you to listen to my fellow heart of worship sister. You wil not be disappointed and you just might be changed.

Blessings~
Amber

Lord...help me

Hello friends.

This is not a serious matter yet it is one that will stay with me for a while. I, like many of you I am sure, have what I like to call a "softee heart". If you have always been the type that no matter how much wrong has been done to you, you still couldn't look the person in the eye and chew them out, well you too are a softee! I have had many things happen in my life and each time instead of standing up and getting defensive I have chose to bow-out if you will and not confront or just simply disappear into the moment. WELL, I have been praying about how I may approach a situation in the future if God intends me to face certain people or trials.

TODAY IT HAPPENED....well...not the culprit but someone very close to them.

1) Picture me with my head held high, smile on my face, and they walk on by like the grace of God said, "keep on movin"..............

Now picture this,

2)I see them, I look down, I frantically reach for my phone, and make no eye contact and wait for the gruelling 20 seconds for them to pass elapse.

What happened? Scenario 2! Oh how I wish I had maintained composure and let the glory of God pour through my eyes! The eyes of love that I truely do have for them yet I couldn't do it. I couldn't do anything but hide away in my nervousness.

I pray that God give me another chance to make it right, if it is His will. He is the defender to the weak, the power for the powerless, and the vindicator of the persecuted by His name. God knows the situation I have been in but I want you to know this, in EVERY situation, He has already won the battle. It takes one ounce of defeat for us to willingly take the credit and glory from our Father and hand it freely over to the enemy. The enemy is not good, he is just good a what he does. God is soooooooo much better, He has already won the battle. I will stand firm and daily renew my mind to the truth that He has defended His beloved and had won on our behalf, it is up to us to just STAND.

I'm standing.

Peace to you dear friends~
Amber